Liam Payne is back on the market after calling off his engagement, and he says that he’s got no one to blame but himself in a YouTube video.
The former One Direction-er was asked about his choice of words referring to his “partner at the time,” confirming the end to his 10-month engagement to model Maya Henry. Liam told host Steven Bartlett on The Diary Of A CEO YouTube show. “I feel like more than anything at this point, I’m more disappointed in myself that I keep on hurting people. That annoys me. I’ve just been not very good at relationships.” He added that he needs to work on himself “before I put myself onto somebody else. And I feel like that’s where I got to in my last relationship. I just wasn’t giving a very good version of me, I didn’t appreciate and I didn’t like me. And I feel better out of it. I didn’t feel good for doing what I did, but it had to happen. In the corniest way to say, it was the best for both of us.”
The singer opened up about what causes the downfall of his relationships to be his struggle to be alone, jumping in and out of relationships too quickly. “I’ve not had spent enough time on my own to re-learn about myself,” he said.
27-year-old Payne said that he would want to go to therapy on his own terms after he felt the pressure of people pushing him to do it. After living most of his life controlled as a self-described people pleaser, Payne reveals he “was living for everybody else,” which put him in a bad place. After reflecting on “what the F” he was doing with his life Payne decided it was time to grow up.
The singer also revealed he’s one month sober from alcohol. His “party of one” turned into years of drinking, coping with his frustrations and being “locked in a room” while he was in One Direction. “When we were in the band, the best way to secure us because of how big it got, was just lock us in our rooms. And of course, what’s in the room? Minibar.”
Gossip website TMZ reports Liam and 21-year-old Henry announced their engagement last August after dating for two years, and he popped the question with a ring reportedly worth more than $4 million.
Prior to Maya, Liam had split with English singer Cheryl Cole, with whom he has a 4-year-old son, Bear Grey.