Ari Lennox recently took to Instagram in a now-deleted-post where the Dreamville artist said that “opening herself up to the world” damaged her career.
“Man, I wish I could start over. Go back to this girl. Wish I never showed the world my personality,” Lennox wrote on Wednesday (Apr. 30).
“Wish I never did an IG live. Wish I wasn’t so naive. Wish I never loved as hard as I do. Wish I was smarter.”
The singer went on to say that she wishes this was a world “you could be free and not judged.”
NEWARK, NEW JERSEY – AUGUST 25: Ari Lennox attends Black Girls Rock 2019 Hosted By Niecy Nash at NJPAC on August 25, 2019 in Newark, New Jersey.
“My opening up myself to the world has only damaged my career but realistically how many people really vouching for soul [music] in mainstream?” Lennox asked.
“I felt my personality helped but it hasn’t. I literally can’t be a carefree woman. I have to live a lie because people are so judgmental and self-righteous. Like even if I was insecure that makes people feel good stating that aloud? Even if I was all these things what’s the point in going out of your way to say it?”
Lennox then asked if she “never returned to social media” could it “erase” everything that’s transpired.
The singer then said that she just “wants things to be about the music.”
“If I’m going to be this imperfect woman, I need [it to be] off the grid,” Lennox said.